fear of eternal unrest

spirit

2021-01-30

2021-09-27

I exist. Or something called "I" exists.
I am aware that I exist. Or something is aware that something (else?) called "I" exists.
If that which is aware ("A") is doing the "aware-ing" towards that which exists ("B"), then A is not B, or A is outside of B.
Only A is capable of "aware-ing". Nothing else, within the universe of A and B, is capable of "aware-ing".
If A is capable of doing something, "aware-ing" for instance, then A must also exist.
- The respective natures of "existence" of A and B are not necessarily the same: B exists because A is aware of it. A exists because it is capable of "aware-ing".
- See next statement.
A is neither a part of B nor birthed by B. But since A and B both exist, A's existence is not dependent on the existence of B.
- This is a consequence of the character of "aware-ing", insofar as we lean towards the Socratic interpretation of how life is essential to the soul, although in doing so we are hijacking the intended meanings of "life" and "soul".
- If A's capability brings about the existence of B, then B can be said to be birthed by A. The existence of B is a manifestation of the capability of A. So the existence of B depends on that of A but not the other way around.
If A exists without the existence of B, then the scope/duration of A's existence is indefinite because B is the only thing in the universe of A and B that exhibits the quality of finitude.
The location of A seems fixed, which one may call "this living world".
- Considering the fixed locality of A to be a finite quality would effectively nullify the point that this page is trying to make.
If the duration of A's existence is indefinite, but the location of A's existence is fixed, then A can exist "here" indefinitely.
If anything exists "here", it exerts energy.
If anything exerts energy continuously, it is without rest.
The possibility of no rest is a cause of fear for the no-rester. Unceasing exertion with no foreseeable respite is one of the most horrible circumstances to be in.
- Note that this empirical statement is a result on the A-level, not necessarily on the B-level.
A is something that is eternally unresting.
But A, as something that is capable of "aware-ing" and "fear-ing", is a subject. In fact, as hinted earlier, it is the only subject within the universe of A and B.
As a subject, the fact that A is eternally unresting provokes fear within A itself, provided that A can be an object of A's own "aware-ing".
The possibility, or mechanism, of avoiding unrest is undetermined. Or at least the determination appears to be very challenging.
A has fear in its inability to avoid eternal unrest.